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"Some of the few conservatives i associate with told me this was going to happen. "You don't realize how many people who want what trump wants are out there," they said, "not saying anything now, and waiting to show up at the ballot." And i laughed in their faces. I ridiculed them. Right up until the tide swung last night sometime around 830 pm, where as my fiancé and i sat on the sofa watching in increasing horror, i believed it couldn't actually be like that, not to that extent, not like they were saying; how a country masquerading christian values (lol) upholds the opposite, a self-driven, me-first mentality, afraid of its own shadow, at the cost of all who don't harbor their true feelings only behind closed doors. I honestly can't imagine how people who feel like that live through day in day out. It seems like a kind of sadness i can't imagine wanting to have to live to carry around, and in seeing it plainer even than i'd ever now, i am thankful i don't feel it in me. There's that at least. That's not my blood. And there are plenty of others who don't have that blood either. A different love. But so now, yes, the real face of what america is has been revealed. The skin is off now. The meat is ripe and nasty and ready to fester right in all of our fool faces. It's not like living amidst open rot is anything new. I'm just not sure i can ever look certain people in the eye again. It's going to take a different kind of effort to remember how to smile and carry on. It's going to take a kind of person perhaps almost like who jesus is purported to have been." - Blake Butler